Yep. Yep I know. I haven't been here for ages. But seriously, who actually reads this anyway!

I have just written an email to my bestie. I do believe it sums up my current state....

Peace out sister.

lovek

ps--OOOOOHH totally forgot. Went to the florist yesterday. She was a pain in the arse. Well she was busy, had just had a delivery of flowers and was searching through boxes looking for some flower "that would be thirsty" and was completely unhelpful. She goes, all pissed off like too I might add, "well usually brides make appointments to come and see me" like I was some fucking bride leper and it's all my fault I'm not fucking living, sleeping, eating and breathing my fucking wedding and that I didn't know that you make APPOINTMENTS FOR FLOWERS!!! I'm sorry I don't have a freaking pink diary with important stuff in it like "monday, gush with friends over totally cute desserts" or "tuesday, go to bridal store and try on 16 equally unflattering dresses while everyone tells me I look like a princess" or have pages and pages where I have practiced my new name "mrs Kathryn Tessier. Mr and Mrs L Tessier. Mrs Kathryn Tessier Green. Ms Green Tessier. Ms Green-Tessier. Ms Tessier-Green"(that is the first time ever I have actually done that, still not thinking bout name stuff).

I just wanted flowers!!!Anyway in the end she was kinda helpful and I walked away accepting that I had to come back and make an appointment. Then in the middle of writing all this I have been searching for the link to their website. Found it. Choose this place cause I thought I could get kick arse flowers with out them being bridey. I have since looked again and I think I've failed....I think this is what she was talking about me having

*insert link which I removed cause I don't need what few readers I may or may not have commenting on fucking flowers. Ok? I mean it in the nicest possible way, just the fewer people that lie to me about "totally cute flowers!" the better.*

You know how you get dumped by waves at the beach and for a minute you can't work out which way is up and which way is down? I'm kind of like that about all of it at the moment so I can't even tell if these are good, bad, or really freaking scary. So tell me how bad are they? Or are they good. Cause for sake of ease, whatever I have, you have, a smaller version. So keep that in mind when you put on your "you look like a princess!" grimace and lie through your teeth. Cause you're going to look like a dickhead too if you don't tell me the truth. I need a nap.lovek